At times..


There’s no doubt at times you feel like you have lost your confidence. You are starting to doubt your own competency and capability. This could be in anything that you’re doing. Could be your career, your studies, your role as a father or your role as a mother.

At times you would feel as high above in the cloud. At times you would feel you are at bottom rock. Here and presently, my confidence has shaken.

Perhaps the one thing that would help you the best at these times is knowing that everyone or anyone is there to support you. You may not realized this, but when you do realized, just try to not forget the moment and the feeling. You feel hope, you feel you have gained your confidence back slowly. Shall you not feel burdened on your shoulder, instead it shall felt like everyone helps you to lift yourself up. 

So at times, remember those moments.


What’s your passion?


What’s your passion? What are the things you do that you enjoy?

Everyone will have those things that they enjoy doing. Whether people consider them just a hobby or they consider it much more. When it comes to something that is much more than a hobby, it can be said that it’s your passion. Your passion may be a part of you and it may just define who you are. So what is passion?

  • Is something that you love to do. You have the feeling that you just have to do it, you have the urge, you have the desire, you have the patience, and you live with it. Without it, you feel empty and purposeless.


  • You invest your time! You may have or have not realized that you spend great deal of time with it. And when you the things that you are passionate about, times just fly. You just never felt the strain of waiting. It’s just time well spent you might say.


  • You set goals. You see yourself want to be better at what you are doing. It’s a milestone that you want to achieve. You want to grow and develop better. You just want to improve or fly like a soaring eagle if you will.


  • It can be your career for life. Well it’s hard to say that people eventually get to do the things that they love to. For example, if you love numbers and it is something you are passionate about, becoming a mathematician may just be the best thing to do. But we all have different passion and some can just be hard to turn it into your career. We have our choices. Those who had their passion as careers, great for them. But it is not a simple equation nor there any algorithm to make it work out.


  • If it is not your career, what can it be? It still can be the things that you enjoy and love doing in your daily life. You can have something to look forward to doing. You can have your passion as your stress-reliever from your work life.

So what are they exactly these passion? It can be anything – baking, singing, caring for animals, or even reading. Aren’t these things your hobby?? To some it may just be. To me passion and hobby may just have a difference. With passion, you have the desire to turn them into something more. Take baking for example. You may be a teacher by day which of course can be something that you actually love to do or consider it as your passion as well or it may be not. But out of work life, you may just have a small baking company from your home or something. It is something you love to do, you invested so much time in it, you set future plans for it and it can be so much more.


Another thing, this may be the first but I would like to hear what you have to say about this post. Share with me your passion!



11th July ’17


New Year, New Resolution?


The year 2017, it has been more than a week. Hope it’s not too late for a new post for the new year. So new year, new resolution? 

… new year resolution is to accomplish my last, last, last, last years’ resolution…

I’m sure every individuals would have their ‘new resolution’ for the ‘new year’. It might be a follow up to last year’s resolution that were unfinished, it might be the resolution that were never been started or even it might be a totally new resolution for the new year! Whatever resolution it is or it was, why do we have to have them by the time another year comes by?

New year…? Its just another day!

First of all, what is new year? Well technically I would say its just the same ‘day’ like any other day. What makes it different or special is that, it marked the line where we another year has gone by. Same like any other day, the different lies on the date. Its a system that human beings have developed in the past to make sense of the time. Nevertheless, its just like any other day.

1/1/2017-I will start to exercise today!

31/12/2018-That’s okay, I will start to exercise tomorrow!

Yes, it is big that we leap into a new year. But to have a new year resolution? I’m afraid it does not last long. The new year’s sensation would only have lasted a short while. Its like any other celebratory days or holidays, they lasted only a short while. To have new year resolution, not to say its bad, but I’d say the the essence would last a short while too. Soon after few days goes by, new year’s essence diminishes, so as our new resolution. I might be wrong but we might even have forgotten about it weeks or months.

New resolution everyday!

What I was trying to say is, we can change that. Some might be frustrated as to have the same new resolution at every year. So the good news is, we can change that!

Firstly, instead of new year, new resolution, lets bend the rule and have a say to new day, new resolution or goals as some might say. What we are doing here is that we are trying to change the way our mind behave. By having the say new day, new goal, its like a journey to a never ending mission to accomplished your goal. Make no mistake, it does not mean you have to have literally new goal every single day. The ‘goal’ does not have to be finished on that day! It may require different length of time to accomplish that goal. To have these goals everyday in your mind, simply provides you with a reminder every single day.

Secondly, like I said your goal may require certain amount of time and effort in order to achieve your goal. It might help to give your goal a set of deadline. But before that, it’s important to know, not everything will need a deadline. Other than deadline, your goal might be achieve by levels or mark as I would say.

For example, an assignment is something that you can give a deadline to. But losing weight its not something you can give deadline to. You can say you have to finish your assignment within a week. When it comes to something like losing weight, you can’t simply put you have to lose 10 kg in one month. It may not seem realistic. Instead try put it this way, “I want to lose 10 kg” or put it by levels “I want to have a running record of 6 minutes per km, then after that level was achieve, I will try to have a running record of 5 minutes per km. Do not put the ‘time’ to it. It does not work that way. This is something that will not follow the system of time.

Other than that, to put them in a record or tracking system might be even good! It gives you the sense of accomplishment. So as to put them all together, new day, new goals!

11th Jan 2017, 10:52 pm


Graduation & Appreciation speech


I always told myself this:

I do not want to excel amongst the others; I just want to excel within myself.

I can assure you, my sentences tend to be more complicated. Actually it just simply means, we should not compare ourselves with the others, we should just challenge ourselves and be good at it. Isn’t that what life has taught us to do? Remember, what was one of the major challenges when we were just about 1 year old? We took our very first step! They would not have called it the milestones if that was easy. I’m sure every one of us here has no memory of this, even if we try to dig out within amygdala, the so-called storage of our memories. But it does not have to be a memory anymore right? Because in fact it has become a part of us human being, to walk.


Learning Medicine is like that. There are so many things to learn in medicine and yet when we try to recall, we manage to remember only very little. We kept asking ourselves, what did I just study? But we may have not realized that in fact, it has become a part of us as well. That is how learning should be.


It is true that there are times when we experience something that I would call it the “burnout”. There was this one statement I remembered, they say the stars burnout. Since then I kept asking myself, how do they burnout. So last night I googled and the first statement that came up were “Generally, the more massive the star, the faster it burns up its fuel supply…” There you go guys, we study too much, and we are the stars.


Do not be discouraged when going downhill my friends. I still remember when I failed my first exam paper in medicine. But no, that was not the end. Just like people say, we learn from mistakes, we learn from failure. But what if we have given our best? Then we should be proud, because you would shine just like the stars. I think it would be more shameful if we did not have failed to even try. Like I said, excel within yourself, challenge yourselves further and believe me it would be just like when you started off with just a waddling gait and now you are capable of a full sprint.


#medicineco9; 25th June 2016 @4:30 PM

Let us all go back again to when we were just about 1 year old. Was everything that we learnt, simple word of ‘mama, papa’, the only hardship? No. We would not be able to grow without our first teacher in life, our parents. Like I said, we must not have remembered the memories of our first walk but our parents do. They must have been so proud back then and they must be so proud right now to see their child grow nearer towards a success. Just like when we started to learn how to walk, they supported us well and they are still supporting us now. They are there when we are at our struggles and they were there when we are at our happiness. To them, we are their hopes, we are their stars and we are their dream. And dear beloved parents, we wish to fulfil your hopes and we wish to make your dreams come true.

As we grow older, we need more support. Especially when we just first started Medicine in UBD, it was just like when we were 1 year old and that must be why they called us the first year back then. And now we are in our 3rd year and we keep on growing. Just like how proud our parents must be when we took our first step, our lecturers and doctors here must be proud of us too. They must have that feeling of self-accomplishment as they have seeded us well. They did not just support us all through the years but they have taught us well. They taught us how to walk on your own feet and the tricks of know-how to survive Medicine, just like Dr Tayyab said we must grab the concept, concept, concept, concept!, with concept everything else comes. Although we simply cannot express how much thankful we are to our parents, lecturers and everyone else, but for them, to see us succeed will hopefully be enough to activate their zygomaticus major muscle, in other words they smile.

Thank you parents, doctors and lecturers, we are truly grateful beyond words. Thank you very much.

6:04 PM; 26th June ’16

-Khairulsadekhz & medicineco9


We grew apart?


Another thought in my mind that I would write one about. People or friends that surrounds us today, may not stay around anymore in the future. In short, we grew apart.

Isn’t it frustrating that you feel that you grew apart from the people surrounding you that you used to be close with? Well I would say, isn’t that normal part of life? Lets look it this way, when we were in kindergarten or in primary school, we have few friends that might have attached to us. But when we moved on to secondary school, we have to leave our primary school friends and we get to know some more new friends in secondary school. Then we leave secondary school and enter university and graduate and start a job; all these will make you leave some people behind you while it will not be impossible that a few might still be attached.

In short, people comes and go. Life is like a journey in a train I would say. You got on the train from a stop, then alongside the journey to your next stop, there will be people that would get on the train and there will be people that would get off the train. What we can gather from this is that different individuals would have different goals and journey in their life and the ‘meeting’ of people might have been fated. We moved on with our life to fulfill our goals in life, to commit to our responsibilities and much more.


We cannot blame for those who leave, and for those who leave they might feel sorry. The same goes to each and everyone of us. It’s all part of life, it’s all beyond our control. Though we do have the choice to choose whether we want to get a special place somewhere in your life for that person. It will all be up to us. There should not be sorrow to this, only happiness and pray for their success. While we moved on with ours

To everyone I have ever known, though we might have missed some episodes in our life, its such a blessing and I am thankful for the memories we ever made and I will cherish them.

9:40 PM; 26th May ’16


Revision week – Exam


With revision week coming to an end, I would like to quote this saying by Dr Ivan Damjanov which I found in his Pathology Secrets book:

Always cover the main topics; ignore the trivia and unnecessary details. Be systematic! Be concise! And remember: You do not have to know everything; nobody knows everything.

Tasek Lama Menara View.jpgHis message correlates with my idea of just focusing the main things and the main concept. Some may have found that revision week has been hard, but it will not compare much to the upcoming hardwork in the near future ! And there will always some kind of rewards at the end. Goodluck to everyone ! There is no limit, fly high ..

1st May ’16; 2:14 PM


Failure? Hard work?


Yes. It needs a hard work to be successful. It can be a success in your study or even in your career. Whatever it is, it needs hard work. 

If I were to ask myself, have I done it? Have you beat up yourself just to get the most out of what you want to achieve? Definitely I can say that I have not. I have not given the best or the most that I can do. Sometimes we like to do things in our comfort zone and I have been sitting at this comfort zone. But in order to achieve something, like for example if you want to score in your exam, you have to challenge yourself and exploit your capabilities, your potential. All are done through hard work.

Well it will be up to what do we want to achieve. If you want to get an achievement, then there is no doubt that you will definitely need a hard work. It is only the matter of questioning yourself whether you want to achieve something? Do you want to get to the top of the hill? Do you want to explore you capabilities? Then, hard work is what you need.

While you should know that, if you fail at some point of your life. It may have meant that you did not put all your efforts into it, you did not work hard enough. However you may wonder, you may have given the most that you have, but why do I still fail? Then it could be other things that you might have missed, for that matter you just have to reflect back. Nevertheless, do not think a failure as a failure in your life. Look at failure as a lesson, remember that we learn from failure. Look at failure as a measurement, you may be giving your 70% not 100%. Look at failure as a success, a success that you have attempted. Its a failure only if you did not try or try hard enough. If you slipped once, get the courage to get up !

Remember, do not be afraid of failure. Be ashamed if you have not work it out hard enough. You just have to excel yourself. I would always have this thought, “I don’t want to be hard on myself”. But no, lets change that and take up the challenge – work it as if its gonna be your last workout ever !


10:16 AM, 6th April ’16